Do It Uninspired
It’s been almost an entire year since I’ve last blogged. I've been in a writing slump and I’m not completely out of the rut just yet. I was super inspired at the start of my blog...blogging two and three times a week. I may have set unrealistic expectations for myself. The pressure of pumping out content scared me. This pressure is what I held as bounty over my own head. No one was coming after me for productivity. I was chasing my self into fear.
"Maybe, what I have to say isn’t good enough.
No one will read it.
You can’t write“.
I’d rehearse this script daily. Can you say, “INSANE?!?!” And I went with it for a whole year!!! Insert side eye at myself.
I can think myself right up out of a good thing. Always second guessing myself. It‘s complete madness. I’ve realized now that the best way for me to energize myself; to put pen to paper, rather stroke these keys, is to just begin writing.
Sometime last year, I lost my motivation. On occasion, I’d briefly experience spurts of inspiration while talking to a friend or watching a documentary. But it was short lived. Real short. My creative juices would flow and then without warning, “ZAP!” Gone in 60 seconds. I’d lose it again. I can remember sitting at my desk at work and this phrase came to me, Do It Uninspired. I quietly prayed for clarity. I felt in that moment that the Holy Spirit was speaking directly to my insecurity and lighting fire to my tail.
Just like the lady who sets a fitness goal; to workout 4-5 times a week. She is me.
My motivations was so high. Sometimes, working out twice a day. You couldn't tell me I wasn't on my way to becoming an athlete. Slowly, the weather started to change. Seasons were shifting. The sun was becoming hotter and hotter and working out outside became harder to do. Eventually working out, period, became increasingly more difficult. I was beginning to lose the inspo for exercise because I couldn't consistently replicate perfect weather conditions conducive to my liking. Working out was being pushed down to the bottom of the list with writing.
Do It Uninspired sounds so cute. What a nice little phrase to put on a t-shirt and wear my white chucks with, huh?!?!? But, this "cute lil phrase" requires work. Hard, dirty, tiresome work. This phrase, believe it or not, is asking for your blood, swear and tears. Literally. It's a personal call to action...to get up, stop making excuses and to get 'er done no matter what. Doing it without inspiration is not waiting for things to be perfect. Truth is, perfection will never come. You have to use what you have, where you are to, who you're with until you are ready to make the change.
Why is it so hard to just get something done without inspiration? I believe it's rooted in fear.
The fear of finishing.
The fear of becoming great.
The fear of accepting that it was you all along keeping your from winning. This is the realization that you are either a part of the problem or le problem.
So, you accepted the loss with arms wide open. Instead of challenging yourself, you laid down and believed that to just get it done, you needed more than what God has already placed inside of you. You are the magic. You are the inspiration!
I want to challenge you to make a list of things you have been putting off until you had the inspiration to do it. Then, start doing it. Do It Uninspired until you feel the magic. One day at a time. That's it. That's all that's required.
Be the Light and Spread Love like it's Texas Roadhouse butter.